Wow...I'm like a little kid, I'm so excited about discovering everything...I had my first experience with directly answered prayer this morning...before, when I prayed, it was like I did all the talking but got no answer...it was different this time...I told God that I was feeling that retreat letdown feeling...you know...you feel so pumped but then you just start to feel so disconnected, like everything you did and felt was just slipping away...I made a committment to change my life and live for God but was starting to feel like it was all just going wrong...but while I was praying, God replayed something Rosemary told me after Michael W. Smith...you have to change your life for God in small steps...baby steps...you can't do it all at once and you can't do it all alone...so I've been reading my Bible, I bought a devotional which totally rocks (I want to plow through it all now, but am making myself hold off so that I can have some to do year round) and I've been praying...I now realize that it doesn't have to be a formal thing, talking to God...no wherefors or whyhence or stuff like that...just talking to the father who loves me...and wow, do I ever love the last track on Reliant K's second album..."Less is More" has the whole message of what I am trying to feel and say...it's been repeating in my mind and playing on my CD player for the last two days...I've even abandoned the Roosevelts to listen to it and that is an incredible thing indeed!