Wow, it's been awhile since I've posted. Sorry to all who read my website...if anyone does! Not much has been happening in my life recently...I leave in 11 days from tomorrow and am coming apart at the seams. Sometimes I have the rational thought "You know, everyone's done this college thing before--if so many people can do it, so can I. I'm just leaving for a short while, I'll be back and it'll be ok." And then I have the irrational "I'm leaving my family for what seems like forever! "Home" will never be "home" again. I'm so scared and I don't think I can do this." So I pretend it isn't even happening, turning it all inward and it's gonna get pretty ugly soon. I remember what happened last time I turned inward like this...only a few people know what happens then! I feel so far from God and can't wait to get to college for the youth group. That will be one of the first activites I sign up for. (That and fencing, maybe. ..I'm trying to live a little because I tend to be a worrywart. Aaagh!