Hi guys...

Wow, it's been a long almost 3 weeks here at school...there's been a lot of crap going on, crap I don't understand and I'm not sure I want to because it seems either so over my head or under my feet...on the plus side, it's snowing!

I've been battling a lot of feelings...anger, despair, fear, confusion, love, hope, joy...I feel like calling myself "The Pendulum Rider" because I can't make up my mind about where I'm going or what I'm feeling...I have a lot of emotions that I don't know what to do with, I don't know who to direct them at, or I do and just can't bring myself to do it...yes, Dana is playing chicken again...you know me...my head tells me something and my heart tells me another, but this time it's different...usually my heart goes "do this!" and my head goes "no way!"...this time my head is going "do this!" and my heart is going "no way! wait...maybe..." I need to "get all my ducks in a row" as the saying goes...and the one person I would normally turn to right now I can't because they are the thing my emotions and logic are fighting about...argh!