Hi...so...so far, it turns out, pouring my heart out has been an exceedingly good thing...my friend, now...dare I say it?...I do dare, I do...*gulp*my boyfriend *sigh* realized apparently that he was being an idiot turning down such an awesome person who liked him so much. Okay, so not exactly his words, but close enough...anyway, we've been together for a few days now, and I'm really excited...we seem to be working out pretty well, but for a few objections on the part of one person and a dire fear of telling my mother of this...I know she doesn't trust me, and prolly thinks I will do something stupid and wind up pregnant...but it's not like that...she doesn't know what it's like between the two of us and somedays I don't think she really cares...but it's not up to her...it's not between him, me, and her; it's between me and him only..that's the thing...I'm tired of people telling me who I can and cannot love, I'm tired of people thinking I'm no good, or that I'm after something I'm not...I need to be who I am on my own terms, and if something makes me happy and makes God happy and makes me feel loved, then I can't find it in my heart to stop it...I just can't...but I'm happy, I'm really happy, and now just to convince the others in my life that's what it's really like...